when I originally had Brittany pick out her bridesmaid dress, she was going to be my only bridesmaid as John refused to ask anyone but Corey. I wanted to ask others, but wanted to keep things even. eventually I decided I didn't care and asked two others. due to the financial situation one finds herself in, I gave them very free reign on the dress they will be wearing. as things get closer I am getting worried this wasn't such a wise choice. we're mixing formal with not... differing colors...i fear a mess. I think it's too late to do anything about it though as purchases have already been made. I'm just hoping everything works out. I so do want everything to be perfect.

we're having to use the credit card for the wedding to stay alive... I'm nervous that we're not going to be able to both pay for the wedding and keep us fed and the bills paid. everything is just so limited right now, it's making me nervous.

we are so close to the day, and are almost kind of prepared... we haven't figured out hotel info yet, or honeymoon locale. we don't have an arch or an idea for one. we decided that for flowers we're just going to get them the day before at a store as they'll be a quarter of the price that way. John needs his outfit and to figure out what his groomsmen are wearing. I need to get my shoes and figure out which shoes my bridesmaids are wearing ( this I am having be the same). we need to make a playlist and decide on whether to have someone John knows dj or not.

I think that's it... now what?