When the dust clears

I am left married to the man I love more than anything in this world.

Now what? Enjoy forever.

Thanks to all who have helped and supported along the way.

rawr

I don't think I've ever been more disappointed in so many people at one time. Everyone received their invitation months ago. I told them they needed to get the information to me no later than the 10th. Yet, somehow people still are undecided, even after giving an RSVP otherwise. It seemed that no one gave a damn enough to actually request time off, or bring up that they would need that day off or to leave early. So now, I have a shit ton of bubbles and shot glasses which I paid for that are going unused. I really would have rather not spent that money - as paying for the wedding, for everyone to eat drink and be marry... means that John and I don't get a honeymoon. I'm completely crushed. I have to have my final numbers in this afternoon, and I have no idea what they are. There are people coming that weren't invited, people not coming that said they were.

For those of you who RSVPd, made the necessary arrangements, I thank you and this is so not directed at you.

For my family - you're amazing! Thank you indefinitely for all the help, love, and support you've given me to make this whole thing happen.

I know that things change, but I guess I just assume that everyone operates the same way I do. That if there was doubt it would have been brought up immediately. I would have mentioned to any employer upon being hired that I needed to take the 22nd off, I would have put in for it off the instant the invitation was received. I know how business operate and handle requests, I know that if this was done there would have been no issue of the waiting. I also know, that if it was your wedding, I would call out if I didn't get the time off.

I guess the people that really matter will be there. The people who are true friends and made plans and are flying in from across the country, driving hours upon hours. The people that offered a helping hand and a loving thought. The people that said, why yes I will be there to join with you in the most important moment of your life. To celebrate your love and rejoice with you.

It seems trite to point out how much all of this has cost us. How we've run out of money and still have more to spend to get things right. It doesn't really matter. And it's not the point anyway. I guess it's just something people can understand easier than lack of loyalty and my crushed belief in people.

I guess that about finishes my rant. I'm pretty sad that the most important part to me (the honeymoon) isn't going to happen... but I guess we have to roll with the punches sometimes.

In less than two weeks....

I'll be married! Kind of. But that's another story altogether.

Everything is set up. All we need now is a final head count. Due to people not being unemployed, I think it's going to be a lot less than expected and than desired I guess. I mean, less people means less expense, but it also means less friends there to share in the good times with.

We're going to the Nelscott Manor in Lincoln City for our honeymoon. There's a jacuzzi tub for two overlooking the ocean. Yeah, I'm excited.

My wonderful Aunt/Sister Melissa got us our flowers. Yay for pink roses, red roses, white alstromeria and such! We'll just need to turn these bouquets into my bouquet, three bridesmaids bouquets, a toss bouquet, petals for the flower girl, and centerpieces... sometime....

My bridesmaids are all set up (I think...) and the playlist is made. We still need to actually download the songs and transfer them to phone/CD/something. I hope that people actually dance... that's what weddings are for, right?

I'm pretty excited, but also scared I guess. Not scared.... just, it all seems so surreal - and I won't believe it until I'm standing on the sand with him I guess. I need to write down my vows on notecards... or memorize them. So close! I hope that everything goes the way we want it to.

Whew! Now what?